I'm finished fashioning an idea in my head.

So... my thoughts about the JSB and wondering why people are all so out of it when they are walking around there, I realized the answer.

Most of the people in the JSB come out of the big auditorium, where large, impersonal, and often boring classes such as Anthropology and American Heritage are held. These classes often call for nap time for many students. Therefore when they wake up from their precious nap, they are drowsy and confused and unaware.

Cased closed.

Weep no more, dear Willow.

Once upon a time, I lost myself.

Then, something happened. It seems to be a combination of things, no one event can be pinpointed as the cause of the change. But change did happen and for the better.

Between reading the Book of Mormon in a month, going back and living with people who I know care about me and want to to succeed, learning I was someone people feel comfortable confiding things with, talking to my best friend who always makes me want to be a better person, remembering people love me and are counting on me, having some alone time to think, making new years resolutions, something happened that flipped my switch back on.

I now remember that I love life, that I have a purpose to what I am doing right now in life, and I need to enjoy and grow from this period of life instead of just looking forward to the future.

Since coming back from Christmas break, my life has been much different and much better. I have been getting better instead of worse from my bronchitis. I have been consistently reading my scriptures and saying my prayers. I have been going to all my classes and doing all my homework early. I have been exercising. I have been focusing on the bigger picture. I have been eating healthy. I have been a better roommate, friend, and student. I have been less selfish. I have been better at personal hygiene. I have been better at feeling. I have been more of the person I want to be.

I am finally starting to be content with who I am again.

And hopefully, I'll live happily ever after.

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head.

Something about the JSB makes people disoriented, or inconsiderate. I believe at least 20 people ran into me on my way to class. Is there something intriguing about the ground in that building? Or the sidewalk outside? That makes one feel as though they have to stare at the ground and be completely unaware of one's surroundings? Or is it simply just monday? I'm not sure. But I am utterly confused.

Swing, swing.

Highlights of 2009....

St. George with the girls.

Said goodbye to my brother for two years.

Loved my friends on choir tour.

Sang in a studio at Disneyland.

Got an award. "Most likely to find a cure for cancer."

Had a romantic moment.

Went to the International Science and Engineering Fair.

Was a salutatorian.

Got in touch with my cartoon side.

Danced the night away many a time.

Made some wonderful life long friends.

Graduated from high school.

Went to France.

Said goodbye to my best friend for two years.

Learned how to golf.

Hiked Mt. Timpanogus.

Went on a classy picnic.

Solved a murder mystery.

Learned how to long board.

Met some awesome girls.

Did the coolest act at the talent show.

Bonded with my family.

Played in foam and dyed myself blue.

Started a new trend. Or two.

Built a haunted house.

Dressed up.

Gave blood. And survived.

Learned how to tumble. And got hit on by someone I didn't know.

Gave my first friend away for marriage.

Cultivated my artistic skills.

Got in tune with my inner self.

Hit up some stake dances.

Overall, I'd say it was a pretty successful year.
2010, come with what you may.