There are certain people you just keep coming back to...

My friend asked me to tell him a story today. This is what came out.

well... once upon a time, there was a little girl, and she dreamed of becoming a ballerina

or maybe a firewoman even

she went to a lovely school and learned lovely things

she had an uncanny talent for knowing how many licks it really took to get to the center of a tootsie pop

one midsummers eve when she was more grown up, she was jumping in puddles after a quiet rain storm

with her polka dot boots and green raincoat.

she jumped into an especially large puddle and started giggling uncontrollably.

so then, a dashing young man who had been sitting nearby enjoying the smell of the fresh rain got curious and peeked around a pillar and saw the young girl

he was instantly struck by her beauty and fell in love with her giggle

while she wasn't looking he went and jumped in another epsecially large puddle and it splashed all over the young woman

and, to make a long story short, they lived happily ever after.

Clever, I know.

Last name, Ever. First name, Greatest.

This is just a sample of songs I could listen to over and over again and never get tired of. So basically this is my repeat-always playlist :) best songs ever.

1. here in your arms - hellogoodbye
2. such great heights - the postal service
3. stolen - dashboard confessional
4. hallelujah - justin timberlake
5. samson - regina spektor
6. she doesn't get it - the format
7. kiss me thru the phone - soulja boy
8. she's so high - tal bachman
9. decisions decisions - the starting line
10. remembering sunday - all time low
11. hear you me - jimmy eat world
12. black balloon - goo goo dolls
13. walking on air - kerli
14. i wrote this song - making april
15. hands down - dashboard confessional
16. her eyes - pat monahan
17. thunder - boys like girls
18. passenger seat - stephen speaks
19. all the above - maino
20. dusk and summer - dashboard confessional

All we know is falling...

Sometimes we think we are photogenic so we go take pictures.
Often we are proven wrong.
But sometimes, it's all worth it.

I'm finished fashioning an idea in my head.

So... my thoughts about the JSB and wondering why people are all so out of it when they are walking around there, I realized the answer.

Most of the people in the JSB come out of the big auditorium, where large, impersonal, and often boring classes such as Anthropology and American Heritage are held. These classes often call for nap time for many students. Therefore when they wake up from their precious nap, they are drowsy and confused and unaware.

Cased closed.

Weep no more, dear Willow.

Once upon a time, I lost myself.

Then, something happened. It seems to be a combination of things, no one event can be pinpointed as the cause of the change. But change did happen and for the better.

Between reading the Book of Mormon in a month, going back and living with people who I know care about me and want to to succeed, learning I was someone people feel comfortable confiding things with, talking to my best friend who always makes me want to be a better person, remembering people love me and are counting on me, having some alone time to think, making new years resolutions, something happened that flipped my switch back on.

I now remember that I love life, that I have a purpose to what I am doing right now in life, and I need to enjoy and grow from this period of life instead of just looking forward to the future.

Since coming back from Christmas break, my life has been much different and much better. I have been getting better instead of worse from my bronchitis. I have been consistently reading my scriptures and saying my prayers. I have been going to all my classes and doing all my homework early. I have been exercising. I have been focusing on the bigger picture. I have been eating healthy. I have been a better roommate, friend, and student. I have been less selfish. I have been better at personal hygiene. I have been better at feeling. I have been more of the person I want to be.

I am finally starting to be content with who I am again.

And hopefully, I'll live happily ever after.

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head.

Something about the JSB makes people disoriented, or inconsiderate. I believe at least 20 people ran into me on my way to class. Is there something intriguing about the ground in that building? Or the sidewalk outside? That makes one feel as though they have to stare at the ground and be completely unaware of one's surroundings? Or is it simply just monday? I'm not sure. But I am utterly confused.

Swing, swing.

Highlights of 2009....

St. George with the girls.

Said goodbye to my brother for two years.

Loved my friends on choir tour.

Sang in a studio at Disneyland.

Got an award. "Most likely to find a cure for cancer."

Had a romantic moment.

Went to the International Science and Engineering Fair.

Was a salutatorian.

Got in touch with my cartoon side.

Danced the night away many a time.

Made some wonderful life long friends.

Graduated from high school.

Went to France.

Said goodbye to my best friend for two years.

Learned how to golf.

Hiked Mt. Timpanogus.

Went on a classy picnic.

Solved a murder mystery.

Learned how to long board.

Met some awesome girls.

Did the coolest act at the talent show.

Bonded with my family.

Played in foam and dyed myself blue.

Started a new trend. Or two.

Built a haunted house.

Dressed up.

Gave blood. And survived.

Learned how to tumble. And got hit on by someone I didn't know.

Gave my first friend away for marriage.

Cultivated my artistic skills.

Got in tune with my inner self.

Hit up some stake dances.

Overall, I'd say it was a pretty successful year.
2010, come with what you may.